Abused and confused,
Traveling in a loop,
Tried to understand why am I here in this world..
In the sea of crowd, I felt alone,
Because people are like a bubbles of foam in the sea,
Traversing in this life of mine,
They come and go as they please.
Why am I here?
Why should I be here?
I am tired of all the glitters of this world.
What I wanted was the other half of my soul,
Which completes my being in this world.
There’s an eternal longing for masculinity beside me,
Because the moon can’t shine without the ray of the sun shining on me,
But what I found was not masculinity,
But toxicity that defiled me.
The first one was a start,
Of a very dark tunnel,
The second one was the dirt,
That dirtied the core of my being,
The third one added a wound,
And sprinkled a salt upon it.
They reminded me of how my father used to be,
Careless, mindless and godless.
How dare can someone say he believes in God,
While abandoning his responsibilities?
Is god something you say you worship?
Or is it The God that you strive to emulate,
Every words that He state.
Can I say I love something,
Without the need for acting?
Can I say I love God,
When what I commit is only a fraud?
So, was man built to destroy?
Because, whenever an Adam was created,
Chaos followed suit.
Till the Angels asked their Lord,
“Why do you create beings that will shatter the world and create bloodshed?”
Is it the wife’s fault for eating the apple of the Garden of Eden?
Is it the husband’s fault for not reminding the wife in hasten?
Or is it the responsibilities of both to maintain the balance?
The loop was created for men to realize,
That life is a constant mistake that has been materialized,
By both men and women alike.
You and I are eternal bind,
Because we are TWO that were actually ONE.
But we were also eternally blind,
Thinking that life is only ONCE.
I knew you from before,
But you were different.
I knew you from the past,
That I do not know which.
But now that I have found you,
You have changed, purified.
While I am tainted and defiled.
Can one accept a rotten apple,
From the Garden of Eden?
Can you accept me,
That has been eaten?
By vicious men that the angels feared,
They destroyed the world and have no fear,
However,
You are different,
You see hope in me,
While I thought all men are vicious,
They think all women are like cookies, delicious.
You want to take me in,
And reminded us of Eden,
Where purity was our dress,
And we did not know of any distress.
Nay!
You are so distant,
Constantly walking,
To the straight path,
And never turned back, looking.
I see you in front of me like a funnel,
The Light at the end of the dark tunnel,
I can choose either two,
Left behind in the darkness,
Or walk beside you in highness,
Ar-Rahman,
Ar-Rahim,
We were two.
Take the scissors,
And cut the loop,
So that time will stop,
And we live side-by-side,
Raise our hands and join these two,
Bismilahirrahmanirrahim,
We are now ONE,
Not TWO,
Aamiin.